Saturday, July 30, 2011

I'm Walking on Sunshine

It's been a busy week and I'm glad it's over...but with all of the ups and downs, it's netting a positive result!

On Thursday, I had to get the MRI done on both sides of my chest.  If you haven't had one before, allow me to enlighten you.  It's like a massage without the masseuse, body lotion, candles or soothing music.  You lay face-down in a dark sheet and your ta-ta's hang down into a big hole.  While your world is pitch dark, they put headphones over your ears so you can't hear the mind-numbing sound that the machine makes.  They lift you up and insert you into such a small tube that when you do panic and lift your head, you bop it on the top of the tube.  Needless to say, you don't want to lift your head because then you will remove your ta-ta's from the hole they are supposed to be hanging in.  This glorious occasion lasts for forty minutes. 

On Friday, I was excited to start my day with lunch with a great friend, before I had my CT Scan in the afternoon.  Evan and I headed down to Brighton to meet Auntie Lisa.  We had the best time catching up and have so much to relate on, since she is a first-time mommy, just back to work and Evan and Mattie are going to get married.  We spent time planning the wedding... and their lives.  No meddling though - they will enjoy our assistance. 

Evan and I were enjoying our nice afternoon drive home, when chaos and WTF struck.  As we were leaving the exit ramp of the highway, I pulled out into the intersection to turn to my parents house.  My power steering completely shut down and I was unable to turn the car.  I completely panicked since I had cars coming to t-bone me from both directions, so I started honking my car.  Probably one of the few times that the instigator of the accident is honking at the oncoming traffic.  As the oncoming traffic slowed down, I was able to reverse my car back into the off-ramp, where we proceeded to lose all power on the 88 degree, humid day.  I called my dad, I called my mom, I called OnStar.  It took about four minutes for Evan to melt into a hot, sweaty mess.  Did I mention that I had about fifty cars swearing at me since I was blocking the ramp and I was trying to choke down the contrast I had to take for my CT scan?  It was a total disaster.  It took about 30 minutes for help to arrive - and help came in the form of Mrs. Kinning.  I tossed Evan to Mrs. Kinning so he could get in the air conditioning and then proceeded to run back and forth to my abandoned car to get the car seat, diaper bag, purse, cell phone...and contrast.  My dad thinks my car needs a new alternator, but the end result is, I posted it for sale on Craig's List last night.  Any takers?

We made it to my CT scan only about 15 minutes late and were very lucky to have Mrs. Hicks there and available to give me the immediate results. It was a good scan!  The first places they look for the cancer to spread are my liver, lungs and bones.  My liver looks completely clean!  I have a few spots on my lungs that will need to be monitored but they can't be ruled cancer without a biopsy and we will wait three months to see if they grow.  The spots could be the result of an old infection.  There were a few other areas that Mrs. Hicks mentioned, but nothing of immediate concern, just things to monitor on my next CT scan.  I will be meeting with my oncologist on Monday, so I will be able to discuss the findings with her and see how she would like to proceed.  At this point, I'm cautiously optimistic and eager to put tests behind me for a few weeks!

Evan woke up ready to go this morning.  He is loving playing peek-a-boo and adores being under his Ocean Gym.  This is our bright-eyed, bushy-tailed baby this morning!

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Good News in Fours?

They say bad news travels in threes...does that mean good news travels in fours?

Yesterday was a day of great things happening around us. 
  1. BK was able to get the time off of work to come home for Evan's baptism.  As soon as he told me, I was able to get online and book his flight!
  2. Brian's sister, Tricia, passed her pregnancy glucose test, meaning she doesn't have gestational diabetes!  We were all so concerned since this is something she had when she was pregnant with Kylie.  This pregnancy has been much easier for Tricia, which we are grateful for...does that mean it's going to be a boy?!
  3. A very dear friend received the best information on her PET scan - her lymphoma is undetectable and all tumors have disappeared!
I am trying to stay positive about the tests I have coming up this week.  I feel that a good result on Friday will almost be like opening my eyes to my future all over again.

On a lighter note...what are thoughts on the Shake Weight?  Does that thing really work?

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Baby Bootcamp - Day 1

Baby Bootcamp was a success last night!  Evan was in bed at 9:00 pm and slept until 2:15 am !  I was able to change him, feed him and burp him and get him back in bed by 3:15.  I did have to drag myself to bed since I was fully engrossed in the Real Housewives of New York reunion.  What could be more spectacular than watching seven brilliantly catty women fight it out in couture?

I put my steroid insomnia to good use last night and was able to attend my first Pilates class with Meghan.  We certainly were no experts, but we held our own.  I am excited to be going with her every Monday night for the next four weeks. 

Also got great news today - BK will be flying home for Evan's baptism on August 21.  I'm so happy that Evan's godfather will be able to attend, along with the rest of our family.  Should be a beautiful day.  I know that Brian can't wait to attend the pre-baptism class.  He is counting down the weeks to sit inside on a lovely summer Sunday.

Up All Night

Today was my sixth chemo treatment in the series of 12.  Here are the highlights:
  • Six more treatments to go; each treatment seems to be taking longer.  I started at 10:15 am and didn't leave until 3:30.
  • I asked my nurse to reduce my steriod content today since it causes severe insomnia.  Since I took on my new "blog" project at 1:00 am, you can see the reduction didn't really work.
  • I will be having a breast MRI and a CT Scan with contrast this week.  The odds are in our favor that we will have good news but I will be anxious until all of the testing is behind us!

Wanted to share with you some of Evan's two month pictures.  He is such a big boy!  Weighing in at 11 pounds, 3 ounces already!  In the 40th percentile for weight, but the 58 percentile for height.  Long and lean!


  • My hair is starting to grow back and I look like a fuzz ball.  Brian has started calling me, "Fuzzy Buckle Head"
  • To combat my fuzziness, I bought a brand new wig on Friday.  I love it!  It feels great to have hair again.  My hair has bangs and is driving me nuts, but you win some, you lose some.  When you see me, please refrain from shouting, "Holy crap, Erin, you have hair again!"  It makes it awkward for those around us.
  • My sweet little Evan started Bootcamp this week.  How do you have a 2 month old in Bootcamp?  Well, it's Baby Bootcamp designed to take a little non-sleeper and turn him in to a sleeper.  Naps are scheduled, feeding is scheduled, holding time is limited and we actually time his crying before we got him.  It's painful and I hate it but I am going back to work shortly and I must have this little guy sleeping.
Other weekend highlights: The Dickel



  • Craig Castelli was on the winning team again - I'm thinking something is rigged.
  • Brian Murray and my dad were also on the 2nd place team, again.  Craig Rothschild pulled miracles on the course to carry them through, or I am thinking this too is rigged.
  • I drank too much on Saturday night but it wasn't noticed by anyway because I was still one of the more sober ones.
  • Our wine bottle bag was filled with baby bottles.  The glamor of bringing a baby to a party.
  • Evan got to meet Great Grammy Pat.  She was wonderful with him.  Great Auntie Kathy, Laura, and Maureen all had quality time with Evan.  It was wonderful to see and I can't wait to do it again.
  • The Miller Family reunion is this Saturday.  Evan will get to meet the rest of his great aunties and uncles and his favorite Baby Conner...who is two weeks older!